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2004-05-24 08:49 | User Profile
CIA PSY OPS VS. FRIENDS OF LIBERTY
by Barbara Hartwell May 22, 2004
Dear Friends of Liberty:
Todd Brendan Fahey, editor of Friends of Liberty, has apparently been targeted for a neutralization campaign. He is currently in Thailand, being "detained" and has been told not to leave Chiang Rai. There were two (2) separate incidents, the first on May 7 and the second taking place on May 19. You may read the two reports on Friends of Liberty.
Fear and Loathing in Chiang Rai, Thailand
In both incidents Todd was physically assaulted by agent provocateurs. In the first incident (which you may read about below, in the whole report taken from Friends of Liberty) he was arrested for "attempted murder" simply for defending himself, and then released with promises from authorities that he would be vindicated; that the perp (who ran away after they were both released) would be apprehended and sent to jail. That did not happen. Instead, Todd was assaulted again, roughly two weeks later, by a second provocateur. The police (who lied) broke their promise to Todd and then refused him any assistance.
Without violating Todd's confidence from private conversations I have had with him, I can say that there is more to this story which I do not yet know if Todd wants to make public, so I won't give the details. Suffice it to say that some of his property was also stolen (something very valuable to him) when the first perp absconded with it after the incident. I had warned him after the first incident that I believed this was not a random occurence, or "bad luck", but part of a plot to neutralize him and just the beginning of the troubles being planned for him. I also advised him to get out of Southeast Asia and particularly Thailand, which is notorious for its CIA installations, literally CRAWLING with CIA. The agency also "owns" many of the Thai officials who are nothing more than lackeys for carrying out the CIA's dirty work...
I have not been to Thailand, but know this because I have debriefed quite a number of military/Special Forces/intelligence personnel, some from Op Phoenix; some Viet Nam vets, including a former AF Sargeant who was my bodyguard for about one year; and ex-FBI agent Geral Sosbee, who while living in Thailand (after his forced resignation from the FBI) was brutally harassed by CIA operatives, who also tried to provoke him.
It is my belief that Todd is being set up and that the plan is to arrest him and incarcerate him, basically to do whatever they can get away with doing. Yesterday, I wrote an open letter to Todd, now posted on Friends of Liberty, asking for contributions to Friends of Liberty to help with any legal and related expenses he may incur.
I find it important to add that Todd stuck his neck out for me by publishing some of my latest reports when no one else would touch them with a ten foot pole. Particularly the last two reports, exposed very major corruption and crimes within both the CIA and FBI, naming names of some of the perpetrators and operatives, which I have no doubt did some serious damage to their agenda. Other publishers/editors were either intimidated or bought off, one way or another. Some accused me of being CIA and used that as an excuse for banning or blacklisting me from their websites.
But not Todd Fahey. He did the right thing, the ethical thing. If not for Todd Fahey, who posted my recent report, Targeted for Terror: Ex-FBI Agent's Gruesome Ordeal, Geral Sosbee's case would not have received the attention it deserved either, since it seems both Geral and myself are persona non grata on many websites these days. In my opinion, Geral's case is a bombshell which, if investigated by Congress could result in the downfall of the FBI, or at least in holding them accountable and cleaning up the corruption.
As God is my witness, I do NOT work for the CIA. But I do work in the interests of Liberty, as Geral Sosbee does and just as Todd has also been doing for many years.
Yesterday, when I posted reports on both Todd's and Geral's cases on one message board, one man I know commented: My friends have told me that if they really found out it was true that this kind of corruption was going on inside the CIA and FBI, they would renounce their citizenship and leave the country. And....This is like something out of a movie !
But it's not a movie, it's real life and it IS happening. The answer is not necessarily to leave the country but to STAND UP for the Constitution and to let these criminals and traitors in government know that THEY are supposed to be working for us, not the other way around. And to let them know, by reports like these, the THE WORLD IS WATCHING THEM.
Lastly, here is a note I received from Todd this morning, relating his current status, which he has given me permission to share.
It is vital that all true Friends of Liberty stand up for others. Please do what you can to assist Todd by sending your prayers and as GENEROUS a contribution as possible.
In the Spirit of (UNCENSORED) Liberty, Barbara Hartwell
----- Original Message ----- From: Todd Fahey To: Barbara Hartwell Sent: Friday, May 21, 2004 7:01 AM Subject: THANK YOU!
Dearest Barbara,
Thank you so much. I'm not in jail; I've not been arrested; but I have been told not to leave Chiang Rai. As well, the Commander of Chiang Rai police said that if I get in one more altercation in his jurisdiction, I WILL go to prison--effectively silencing me.
So, I've got to watch my temper and basically be a pacifist (which is NOT my nature). Also, if attacked, I cannot report it to the Chiang Rai police--as they kicked me out of their office yesterday and told me that if I have anything more to say, I must contact the U.S. Embassy on my own--and that I must pay for the translation of all reports from Thai to English on my dime, as well.
You know the score. Yes, I am being provoked deliberately. You were right.
Love, hugs and thank you again for spreading the word. You are free to refer this note to anyone you wish.
TBF
[url]http://www.sianews.com/modules.php?name=News&file=article&sid=1730[/url]
2004-05-24 17:22 | User Profile
[QUOTE=Faust]CIA PSY OPS VS. FRIENDS OF LIBERTY
----- Original Message ----- From: Todd Fahey To: Barbara Hartwell Sent: Friday, May 21, 2004 7:01 AM Subject: THANK YOU!
Dearest Barbara,
................
You know the score. Yes, I am being provoked deliberately. You were right.
Love, hugs and thank you again for spreading the word. You are free to refer this note to anyone you wish.
TBF
[url]http://www.sianews.com/modules.php?name=News&file=article&sid=1730[/url][/QUOTE]Well it doesn't take too much to provoke Todd. I can hardly wait for Weisbrot's analysis :lol:
2004-05-24 22:28 | User Profile
He went off on me a few back b/c I asked about his slanted-eye girlfriend.
That set him off. I suppose politics would probably get him even more enraged.
J
2004-05-24 22:33 | User Profile
I quit taking the guy seriously when he confessed to being a heavy drug user and confessed to having undergone multiple psychiatric evaluations in which no doctor ever concluded he was a psychotic (or something like that). I'm not smearing the guy; that post is in the LF archives somewhere. It's a shame because he's a talented writer. He shouldn't be wasting his brain away using that stuff.
2004-05-24 22:39 | User Profile
I've always been curious that whatever happens on the internet, eventually leads to requests for money. When in doubt, send money. :D
2004-05-24 23:13 | User Profile
[QUOTE=Okiereddust]Well it doesn't take too much to provoke Todd. I can hardly wait for Weisbrot's analysis :lol:[/QUOTE]
It'll have to wait. I'm resting up from my Thailand trip.
2004-05-25 00:23 | User Profile
So, I take it you are out for the "TBF emergency AID fund?" :D
Jay
2004-05-25 03:34 | User Profile
Todd is a good example of why drugs are bad.
2004-05-25 10:31 | User Profile
[QUOTE=Valley Forge]I quit taking the guy seriously when he confessed to being a heavy drug user and confessed to having undergone multiple psychiatric evaluations in which no doctor ever concluded he was a psychotic (or something like that). I'm not smearing the guy; that post is in the LF archives somewhere. It's a shame because he's a talented writer. He shouldn't be wasting his brain away using that stuff.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, it's a shame. Todd's a talented guy.
It'd be great to have him on board and sober.
Walter
2004-05-25 11:19 | User Profile
Todd is an old ODer and it pains me to see so much snickering at his expense while he might be in a tough spot. (I can see Okie doing it, though. Kicking a man when he's down is his specialty, given its the safest time to do so.)
I can't see how sending $ to Thailand, directly or indirectly, is going to do anything but end up in the pockets of the Thai police either, but it's certainly within all our means to keep our fingers crossed for him. [I]Detained in Thailand [/I] is no joke. Todd's been over there a while now, he's savvy enough to know a Westerner doing drugs in Thailand is like waving a red rag at a bull - something you don't do.
It would be interesting to wire up the membership of OD to a polygraph, or pentothal the lot of us (me included). I'll bet money there are more recreational drug users (among other unsavory private pursuits) than you'd assume from the self-righteous tones taken. The beam and the mote, fellas, the beam and the mote.
2004-05-25 11:54 | User Profile
[QUOTE]It would be interesting to wire up the membership of OD to a polygraph, or pentothal the lot of us (me included). I'll bet money there are more recreational drug users (among other unsavory private pursuits) than you'd assume from the self-righteous tones taken.[/QUOTE]
I did plenty of all that stuff when I was young.
Yes, Ragman, I inhaled. Deeply. I also drank to vast excess and even put a few things up my nose. Many, many times I stayed out late and did the hootchie-coo.
And I regret every last little bit of it. It's a recipe for misery.
But that was nearly 25 years ago, and I've stayed away from it completely since then, by the Grace of a very merciful God.
So, I can totally relate to where our man Todd is at, and I empathize utterly. I just hope he's as blessed as I was and finds his was home.
Walter
2004-05-25 12:11 | User Profile
Il ragno: Talk about self righteous. Read your own post, you preaching scoundrel, you.
When the rubber meets the road, it's up to the person to want out of the shit. If they insist on wallowing in it, pulling away from those who care and trying to illicit sympathy...after a while people do snicker at the foolishness. But, it's sad someone throws their life away like that. If anything, it's the lack of acceptance and sympathy that'll save the guy's life. Make sure he knows the whole net is over here laughing at his stupidity in having the choice of leaving a very hostile situation (like Berg)but refusing to do so. Acting like that isn't a foolish thing, isn't helping the guy. Though, it does give you a self righteous soap box to stand on.
As far as drug use being acceptable, it isn't. If you know anything at all about that world, you know it isn't. If a guy wants to grow and smoke pot and stay in private when he's on it, that's his business, IMO. But, if you're talking about being high in public and forcing others to deal with it, or buying that crap from some grubby little gangster who wreaks terror on the streets, you're wrong. And, don't think just because the guy or gal you get it from looks OK, that it's not coming from(and benefitting) some shit hole character some place who would do anything for enough money.
2004-05-25 13:39 | User Profile
Yeah - but where do you see an indication that Todd's current problem has [I]anything [/I] to do with drugs?
Nowhere. Somebody posts a dispatch that he's in trouble over in Thailand. And suddenly everything he ever (honestly) posted about himself gets dragged up to character-assassinate him. As if to say, "Wasn't he the guy who admitted doing acid? F*ck 'im then."
2004-05-25 14:01 | User Profile
[QUOTE=il ragno]Yeah - but where do you see an indication that Todd's current problem has [I]anything [/I] to do with drugs?[/QUOTE]
I got that from you:
[QUOTE]Todd's been over there a while now, he's savvy enough to know a Westerner doing drugs in Thailand is like waving a red rag at a bull - something you don't do. [/QUOTE]
Perhaps I misunderstood.
Besides, dollars to doughnuts he did something naughty.
2004-05-25 17:01 | User Profile
[QUOTE=Valley Forge]I quit taking the guy seriously when he confessed to being a heavy drug user and confessed to having undergone multiple psychiatric evaluations in which no doctor ever concluded he was a psychotic (or something like that). [/QUOTE]
I was referring to this, Walter.
2004-05-25 22:27 | User Profile
Look, IR, listen up and listen good.
You totally misunderstood my comments.
I have nothing but respect and admiration for TBF's writing ability and nothing but compassion for anyone in his situation.
I thought I made that clear.
It's his writings, or rather the information he claims to be privy to in his writings, that I no longer take seriously, not the man himself.
That said, if you consider self-confessed heavy drug users to be a reliable source of information, fine.
I don't.
So if you want to believe CIA spooks after TBF in Thailand and that his take on the things is generally credible, go for it, man.
But don't chastise me because I don't share your viewpoint.
Got it?
Good.
[QUOTE=il ragno]I was referring to this, Walter.[/QUOTE]
2004-05-25 22:44 | User Profile
I'm 29 and never once even smoked dope.
I've had a few girlie friends, but never a one-nite stand and certainly nothing absurd.
So, I feel perfectly qualified to say something about another person who uses drugs too much. Esp. when they insult me on a board.
Jay
2004-05-25 23:18 | User Profile
No offense meant - just pointing out to Walter where I first saw the reference on this thread.
As for Jay, bully for you. Keep away from tobacco as well (take it from me).
But "[I]He went off on me a few back b/c I asked about his slanted-eye girlfriend[/I]"? LOL! Gee, what could've precipitated [I]that [/I] outburst, I wonder?
"Say, Bill, I'm curious about that gook you're screwing. Does she eat human food at all, or just fish heads and nightcrawlers?"
2004-05-25 23:37 | User Profile
[QUOTE=il ragno]Todd is an old ODer and it pains me to see so much snickering at his expense while he might be in a tough spot. ([I][COLOR=Red]I can see Okie doing it, though. Kicking a man when he's down is his specialty, given its the safest time to do so[/COLOR][/I].)
I can't see how sending $ to Thailand, directly or indirectly, is going to do anything but end up in the pockets of the Thai police either, but it's certainly within all our means to keep our fingers crossed for him. [I]Detained in Thailand [/I] is no joke. Todd's been over there a while now, he's savvy enough to know a Westerner doing drugs in Thailand is like waving a red rag at a bull - something you don't do.
It would be interesting to wire up the membership of OD to a polygraph, or pentothal the lot of us (me included). I'll bet money there are more recreational drug users (among other unsavory private pursuits) than you'd assume from the self-righteous tones taken. The beam and the mote, fellas, the beam and the mote.[/QUOTE]As the esteemed W.C. Field's noted some years ago, the best time to kick a man is when he is down. Seriously, TBF did what many foreigners have been doing in Thailand for years. He will be extorted by the Thai police for all they can get. He must have known this was bound to happen one day. I wish him luck. He may need all he can get to avoid AID's.
2004-05-26 00:03 | User Profile
[url]http://www.newworlddisorder.ca/issueone/interviews/faheyinterview.html[/url]
Todd Brendan Fahey, a strategic writer stationed in South Korea, has served as aide to Central Intelligence Agency agent Theodore L. "Ted" Humes, Division of Slavic Languages, and to the late-Defense Intelligence Agency (DIA) chief Lt. General Daniel O. Graham; to former Arizona Governor Evan Mecham (R-AZ), former Congressman John Conlan (R-AZ) and others. He is author of Wisdom's Maw: The Acid Novel (Far Gone Books, 1996) and "Al Hubbard: The Original Captain Trips" (High Times magazine, 1991), exposes the CIA's MK-Ultra program and its influence on the Sixties' psychedelic counterculture. He is the architect of FriendsOfLiberty.com.
New World Disorder: Do you think LSD and psychedelics in general have changed you in any way? Was the pre-trip Todd any different than the post-trip Todd? For better or for worse? Some people trip and they don't change at all. Did it awaken an interest in mysticism, philosophy etc.?
Todd Brendan Fahey: Psychedelics and, to a lesser extent, the dissociative anaesthetics (dextromethorphan, Ketamine) have altered me (that disparate thing called "me," which is now more than simply the id/ego/superego, of Freudian paradigm) radically. Whereas once I was a stone-atheist--a good, old-fashioned American materialist, a believer in baseball, boxing, booty, & such--, I feel now to be a meaningful part of God's plan, which is still mysterious to me, but of which I am being shown ever-more frequent glimpses (--a sort of risky exercise in traveling through one of Stephen Hawking's theoretical wormholes to the Source).
It all began one day in high school, with a bag of magic mushrooms. Old friends from those days still tell me about "the time Todd Fahey took mushrooms for three-days straight," and came out a different chap. Psychedelics turned on a Satirical component of my being that I didn't know I had, previously. I became a connoisseur of Black Humor after those trips: a voracious reader of Hunter Thompson, Burroughs, Swift, J.P. Donleavy (The Ginger Man), etc.; and also of the Greeks (Heraclitus, Plato, Aristotle, Plotinus), who are very much seeking after answers as to the composition of the Soul and the duties of man in his lifetime.
At first, I would go on an acid- or 'shroom-trip and be terribly confused upon coming down, because it (the experience, all I was "shown") was so intense and incomprehensible to my immature psychology and vocabulary. I would be frustrated that I was unable to put It (which was, precisely, "me" changing, growing, as God hath directed me to do, tho it's taken a long ****ing time) into words. I was always a chronic book-worm; my mom read to me & my sister, of all the classic children's stories (Charlotte's Web, James & the Giant Peach, A Wrinkle in Time), all the fantastic, psychedelic stuff, which was obviously (to me, now) a precursor to that which my life has become. But in actually ingesting psychedelics (E.B. White and Ronald Dahl were known-users of LSD, btw), I was forced to begin, crudely at first, putting it down on paper, and thus became a writer.
I have written of one particularly savage drug-epiphany, which was more like a Religious Event than anything I've experienced before or since, and also a speculative guide to what I believe shall be man's future (or, what -should- be man's future, if man doesn't muck it up), which may be interesting to you:
"Room 55, the Hotel von Onna, Amsterdam"
"Where to"
NWD: It ÃÂs obvious some sort of global culture is forming. Do you think psychedelics etc. could become the religion of a future global culture, with its own psychedelic priesthood, a powerful religion fit for a cybernetic super-future?
TBF: For the past decade, I have written of and thought that psychedelics could and should become the basis for a new religion. As a Believer in God (that aggregate force which is, essentially, inexplicable, & for whom every sect has its own definition), I don't find myself shying away from the name "religion" anymore. For the world, my life, what is, to be devoid of a creator who is supernatural, a "first-cause," as it were, is more frightening to me than admitting the obverse.
I've experienced things--physical manifestations, access to information, dream-sequences that parallel the next days' events--that are inexplicable by Modern Science, and, therefore, I chose years ago to break with epistemology (the science of observable "facts") and, instead, align myself with what is more on the order of Faith. For a man who, in Jimi Hendrix's words, is Experienced, after all these years of observing the chasm between random "observable fact" and the Plan which God hath for us, who really Listen to the Music, I can find no shame in admitting that I am a God-fearing sort, and even given to enjoying religious ceremonies--be it Christmas Eve Mass at St. Paul's Cathedral or the wind off the wings of a stone-crazy, dancing mudang (a Korean melding of ecstatic-worship of nature and clairvoyant trance).
But do I think psychedelics will ever become the basis for a world-wide religion? As Leary liked to say, "It all depends on you." That is, if there are a sizeable populace with the balls/chutzpah for to grok from inside Huxley's Door, and if those people will form alliances with loony-Left and conspiratorial-Right and non-aligned anarchist orgs., and who will seek to gain legitimacy in the halls of politics, similar to that which has been gained by homosexual and ethnic groups, I think the tide toward abolition of "unauthorized use of Drugs" could be stemmed.
But consider this: Great change has never been effected by the Masses; it is always the prophet and his disciples who move the Word to the world. Most humans are not unlike sheep or bees. We are a herd mentality. When things get really exciting, to me, is, when someone like Thoreau or Frederick Douglass or Leary or Stephen Hawking comes along and deliberately punches a hole in the socio-structure. This, to me, is as close to magick as can be performed by humans.
Some folks claim to be "in the zone," sufficiently that they have no need for any chemical adjustment of the brain but, as Huxley said, it is the very rare Mystic who can claim this sort of knowledge and/or wisdom. Most need to "get their mind around it," in the form of dropping acid, eating mushrooms, smoking pot. I've never had a problem with this concept--anymore than I would for the person who is blind to wear glasses or the person who is weak or ill to ingest vitamins or physician-prescribed medicaments.
& for Bill-who-didn't-inhale (even if it were true), I say: "Why not?"
I've said, in Philadelphia's Carbon 14 'zine, that, "I'm either bored of the `sober life,' or else it scares the shit out of me. I don't think I've been straight for more than a week in 17 years."
My experimentation with psychedelics, which began with a baggie of mushrooms while as a junior in high school, escalated to taking a hit (or three) of LSD between my pinch'n'gum every day, for, mebbe, 40-days-in-a-row, for most of my late-20s and early-30s.
There is no teacher by whom to learn to navigate the psychedelic experience (or, as Aldous Huxley called it, "the mystic vision.") Just like no one can really teach you how to hang-glide; a sense of What Is Possible is given to one by God. (For you atheists out there, let me substitute, "is implanted by genetics," just like having a fear of heights or having none.) & as I am not in the business of advocating drug use, let me just say, as Hunter Thompson has said, "It's always worked for me."
Under the aid of Drugs, some folks jump off tall buildings in a single splat. Some go on to write great philosophical treatises (Leary, Robert Anton Wilson, Samuel Taylor Coleridge, de Quincey, yaddayadda). "Who can tell?" HST.
In the end, though, as I've figured out, one must need to confront his/her own emotional and psychological vortices, more or less sans Drugs, for to really be keen on what makes one tic. The whole notion of fasting, asceticism, meditation, prayer, is older than psychedelics, and, probably, more binding. I'm just guessing ('cos I'm a struggling addict at the moment--having kicked a Ketamine jones, but aching in every way for the Release), but I think there's a basis for the enduration of the Buddha and of Jesus Christ, whom did not (or, that evidence suggests) imbibe in a lot of extraneous substances.
Huxley understood this in The Doors of Perception, when he said (paraphrasing), that "Religious experiences can be had by all; but by most, it requires Drugs).
NWD: In the "Hot News" section of the Far Gone Books page there used to be a letter (which has been removed, so forgive me if I'm ****ing up the details) alerting various "authorities" about some kind of strange vibration or pulse that you experienced in Korea. Have you figured out or have any theories about the cause?
TBF: Good catch. There was, indeed, a report on my Far Gone Books Web site, which detailed the night in which I phoned the U.S. Department of State (speaking to one "field agent Douglas Connor"), from my apartment in Korea, wherein, being beset by an absolute helplessness to some magnetic tracking-pulse, I felt that, if I were gonna be dying in the next three or seven minutes, I figured I'd better "go public" with the weirdness.
This is the first time I've ever written at-length of the episode (the first of them, there were several), and so New World Disorder is getting something of a world-exclusive herein.
First, I will admit to having been that night and on several other occasions under the influence of Ketamine. However, the same circumstances have occured in states of utter sobriety, jerking me out of bed from a sound sleep. So, who can tell?
During the period of November 1990-March 2000, I had been a fixture on a Web site called FreeRepublic.com, which is Rightist/libertarian in nature, and which counts amongst its participants and lurkers, such media gurus as Sam Donaldson, Rush Limbaugh, Britt Hume, Ann Coulter, Sean Hannity and others. FreeRepublic.com draws 450,000 verified hits daily, and is THE site for news relevant to keeping one's soul clean of the disinfo that is foisted upon us all by mainstream media.
During the aforementioned period, I was hammering away at John McCain (who I knew in my three years as an ultra-Right political operative in Arizona), and whom I view as "the politician most-likely-to-be-the-Manchurian Candidate"). Some of the dirt on McCain to which I am privy--detailed ad nauseum in my "straight-to-Web" autobiography, Hell Bottled Up!: Chronicles of a Late Propaganda Minister-- was aired in live interviews by ABC's Sam Donaldson and in a New York Times article (Michael Frantz, journalist).
For my public service, I was drawing major heat from the McCain's campaign, including drawing all kinds of moles from out of the woodwork, who were working 24/7 on FreeRepublic.com, just to combat the information I was posting daily. I was finally banned in FreeRepublic, sans explanation (a "lifetime ban," issued by Webmaster Jim Robinson).
Just when I thought things could get no worse, for my profile, I was informed by Hotmail/Microsoft officials that my account was terminated, all 750 backlogged posts--two years' correspondence, irreplaceable essays, contact info w/ all kinds of politicians & magazines--vanquished, also sans explanation.
It was about that time that, while listening to John Coltrane's Giant Steps, with a headfull of Ketamine, laying on my bed, earjacks firmly implanted into the skull, and really grooving to Coltrane's genius, I was literally JERKED RIGHT OUT OF MY BED by a force. I found myself being dragged first through my bedroom, then into the livingroom, my legs and spine stiff and seizing to a feeling that I was not in control of mine own movements. I've been whacked before, on many chemicals, but nothing came close to this. Then I started to perform some ritualistic dance that included savage kicking motions and very orchestrated finger movements. It all seemed quite logical, for a few moments, and for a little while I "understood" why I was doing what I was doing, but my capacity to explain it now is no longer.
But after a few minutes, some part of my brain recognized that this was not the "Todd Brendan Fahey known unto Todd Brendan Fahey," and I began to experience The Fear. I had no control whatsoever over that which it was I was doing. I was like a marionette puppet. And it was apparent to me then (this has happened on at least four other occasions that I can remember; the weirdest thing was, I remember doing this same thing, or having this same thing done unto me while as a child) that an electromagnetic pulse were being utilized from space (or from a spook-van in the parking lot of my apartment, who knows) to lead me to jump out my livingroom window.
This sounds insane, it is insane, but it happened. I "came to," with some measure of recognition of who I was (in consensus reality), and I resisted whatever it was was possessing me; when I finally regained control of my musculature, I immediately collapsed on the floor, grabbed the phone, and dialed the U.S. Embassy in Seoul, who forwarded me to the State Department, where I inquired of any NSA (National Security Agency) operations over (name of town deleted for security reasons) Korea. I was coherent, composed, and the officer seemed to take me seriously. (He could "neither confirm nor deny," and took down my statement, cordially.)
While still on the subject of Ketamine, a month earlier, while attending the Disinfo.com Convention (Robert Anton Wilson presiding) at the Hammerstein Ballroom, downtown Manhattan, I was privy to another, less-terrifying but equally bizarre, happening, this one involving a long mirror in my room at the Rev. Sun-Myung Moon/CIA-controlled (y'all can check this out if you want to) New Yorker Hotel, on 5th Street, in which the mirror into which I was viewing myself brush my hair, came alive, and I was able to alter my appearance, even to the point of seeing my hair grow dramatically, change the length of my chin, reshape my ears, and almost utterly transform my appearance, as I wished, as often as I wished, and, for as long as I was able to stand it, for as long as I wished.
The New Yorker hotel is a spook-haven, and R.U. Sirius and his girlfriend that night commented on "feeling really freaky vibes, electrical in nature", inducing a general, all-around paranoid vibe.
2004-05-26 00:13 | User Profile
[QUOTE=weisbrot]Todd Brendan Fahey: Psychedelics and, to a lesser extent, the dissociative anaesthetics (dextromethorphan, Ketamine) have altered me (that disparate thing called "me," which is now more than simply the id/ego/superego, of Freudian paradigm) radically. Whereas once I was a stone-atheist--a good, old-fashioned American materialist, a believer in baseball, boxing, booty, & such--, I feel now to be a meaningful part of God's plan, which is still mysterious to me, but of which I am being shown ever-more frequent glimpses (--a sort of risky exercise in traveling through one of Stephen Hawking's theoretical wormholes to the Source).
It all began one day in high school, with a bag of magic mushrooms.... [/QUOTE]Quoting a guy's own words - that's really kicking a guy when he's down........ :lol:
Seriously, I feel sorry for Todd, but with druggies something like that is bound to happen sooner or later. Seems like Todd's always getting in trouble of some sort or another.
Maybe he can persuade the Thai guards to drop some acid.
2004-05-26 00:58 | User Profile
[QUOTE=il ragno] As for Jay, bully for you. Keep away from tobacco as well (take it from me).
But "[I]He went off on me a few back b/c I asked about his slanted-eye girlfriend[/I]"? LOL! Gee, what could've precipitated [I]that [/I] outburst, I wonder?
"Say, Bill, I'm curious about that gook you're screwing. Does she eat human food at all, or just fish heads and nightcrawlers?"[/QUOTE]
HA! That's pretty funny IR. But of course, you may or may not remember that I actually asked him about his Asian girlfriend in a polite way. He went off, and henceforth I did refer to her as the slant-eye.
IIRC, you actually defended the Asian persuasion quite eloquently. Which is fine. I just think whites need to reproduce more whites. I could be wrong.
J
2004-05-26 15:41 | User Profile
[QUOTE=jay]HA! That's pretty funny IR. But of course, you may or may not remember that I actually asked him about his Asian girlfriend in a polite way. He went off, and henceforth I did refer to her as the slant-eye.
IIRC, you actually defended the Asian persuasion quite eloquently. Which is fine. I just think whites need to reproduce more whites. I could be wrong.
J[/QUOTE]
I suggest that Tex do an OD poll:
Did you ever inhale?
The results should be interesting.
I'll bet I'm not the only one who smoked wacky tobaccy.
Walter
2004-05-29 02:15 | User Profile
[QUOTE=Walter Yannis]I suggest that Tex do an OD poll:
Did you ever inhale?
The results should be interesting.
I'll bet I'm not the only one who smoked wacky tobaccy.
Walter[/QUOTE]
I inhaled, out of curiosity. Age 18, first semester of freshman year of college. It was a mistake, not because of any foolish "moral implications" surrounding the act, or supposed potential medical or legal implications, but because the stuff was horrible. I dislike the feeling of "not feeling like myself." I never did it again, never will.
For the same reason, alcohol wasn't all the fun that people make it out to be, either--although it was briefly a little more pleasurable before the feeling gets boring and you wish your liver would just hurry up and process it out.
2004-05-29 09:20 | User Profile
[QUOTE=PaleoconAvatar]I inhaled, out of curiosity. Age 18, first semester of freshman year of college. It was a mistake, not because of any foolish "moral implications" surrounding the act, or supposed potential medical or legal implications, but because the stuff was horrible. I dislike the feeling of "not feeling like myself." I never did it again, never will.
For the same reason, alcohol wasn't all the fun that people make it out to be, either--although it was briefly a little more pleasurable before the feeling gets boring and you wish your liver would just hurry up and process it out.[/QUOTE]
Hmmm . . .
You sound terribly normal and healthy.
As for me, I liked the stuff way far too much right from the get-go.
And I didn't get wise to the fact until it was already a problem.
But I won't bore you with the details.
Walter