← Autodidact Archive · Original Dissent · toddbrendanfahey
Thread ID: 12765 | Posts: 14 | Started: 2004-03-17
2004-03-17 08:20 | User Profile
I will remarry my ex-wife this winter.
Things have come full-circle, I've faced my fears and have confessed and been admonished of my lies of the past (my hidden drug abuse).
No, I won't be Mormon; but I'll be happy to support her religious affairs; we will likely live abroad for a time, and she respects my solace at Buddhist Temples.
Lisa Fahey is responsible for the entire production of my novel, and I've never gotten over her.
2004-03-17 13:02 | User Profile
[QUOTE=toddbrendanfahey]I will remarry my ex-wife this winter.
Things have come full-circle, I've faced my fears and have confessed and been admonished of my lies of the past (my hidden drug abuse).
No, I won't be Mormon; but I'll be happy to support her religious affairs; we will likely live abroad for a time, and she respects my solace at Buddhist Temples.
Lisa Fahey is responsible for the entire production of my novel, and I've never gotten over her.[/QUOTE]
I am glad that you have come face-to-face with your drug habit. I fully support you sobering up. Your answers on the post here "Go West, Young Man", clearly showed you to be a very unhappy person at the time. I am glad you are remarrying your wife. To keep a good woman, you have to be a good man. You are finally wising up that oriential women don't measure up to a good American woman. I am glad you learned your lesson.
2004-03-21 17:39 | User Profile
[QUOTE=toddbrendanfahey]she respects my solace at Buddhist Temples. .[/QUOTE]
Am I really reading this....?
Jay
2004-03-22 05:53 | User Profile
you're really reading this; she even respects my RIGHT to consume DRUGS, now, on occasion, so long as I don't lie to her, as in the past.
Cool gal.
2004-03-22 14:35 | User Profile
I would never have suspected that the recreational consumption of drugs is a "right". Let's throw it out on the table for general comment- how does this "right" measure up in importance with the right to bear arms, for instance?
What does the blushing bride think of your choice to consume recreational drugs, and does her opinion in that regard matter to you in any way?
2004-03-22 15:10 | User Profile
[QUOTE=weisbrot]I would never have suspected that the recreational consumption of drugs is a "right". Let's throw it out on the table for general comment- how does this "right" measure up in importance with the right to bear arms, for instance?
What does the blushing bride think of your choice to consume recreational drugs, and does her opinion in that regard matter to you in any way?[/QUOTE]
I guess that it would be under the rubric "pursuit of happiness."
Although it seems to be pushing it quite far. I think that society has the right to outlaw drugs if it believes that is necessary to protect the commonweal.
In my opinion, I'm on record as stating that the drug laws do more harm than good and should be repealed for that reason alone, although again I think that society isn't violating per se anybody's individual rights by banning them.
Walter
2004-03-22 20:37 | User Profile
[QUOTE=toddbrendanfahey]you're really reading this; she even respects my RIGHT to consume DRUGS, now, on occasion, so long as I don't lie to her, as in the past.
Cool gal.[/QUOTE]
Your right, eh. Well, for both of you, I hope it works out for the best. I do have a question for you, Todd, do you care more for drugs or her? Would you still marry her if she wanted you to give up drugs completely?
2004-03-22 20:44 | User Profile
[QUOTE=weisbrot]I would never have suspected that the recreational consumption of drugs is a "right". Let's throw it out on the table for general comment- how does this "right" measure up in importance with the right to bear arms, for instance?
What does the blushing bride think of your choice to consume recreational drugs, and does her opinion in that regard matter to you in any way?[/QUOTE]
The right to bear arms is for defense of life and property. I cannot see how the recreational use of drugs defends one's life and property. If anything, it makes one unfit to defend one's life and property when "high."
2004-03-23 03:50 | User Profile
Aside from my recreational drug intake being none of your business, my ex- has agreed to take me back "as I am." She's seen the worst, and the worst came from trying to hide my drug intake from her (not necessarily from the drugs themselves).
Once I came clean (not be confused with "got clean"...which will probably never happen), I felt like a new man.
Something you prol'ly will never understand, and, as I said, it ain't your business anyway.
Dunno why some of you are so snoopy and Puritanical. That's sure not my style of politics. Some of you seem comfortable in John Ashcroft's quarter.
2004-03-23 05:17 | User Profile
I rightly respected your (TBF's) mental state, whatever it is chosen to be, if it is potitive American, because, as I have been trying to say since joining the board, throughout all the alterated states of consciousness recorded in these posts, the Spirit is not what is from the blood, per se (arousal of which, as energy, can be used for any purposes) but from what comes through that, as "works."
I take the statement "My drug use is none of your business" to indicate tracit concurrence witht his point of view. It is nothing I have ever hated myself for.
However, you might be more like my Father's kind of G*dball, though not in the sense of manhood, of course, since ther never was nor ever could be another like him. Neither he, nor my wife, ever accepted it, entirely, though anybody who denies drugs can enhance sex can tell it to Bob Dole.
No, there is only one source of salvation open to you, tbf, and that is a re-birth into a True Christ, True American partiot: cutting ties with Old Adam, 2-sided Cross worshippers ("we're on both!" say those who identify with the Old Adam Mordecais of the Old Testament). That is the only way you can redeem the use of the little spirit you may have been given to p*ss in the ocean of national life. Try to have some courage, man. A lot more might depend on it than you think. Sharon is passing the ball off to Netanhayu; Netanyahu is no doubt signalling Falwell, Robertson and the sappy Birchers; and they ....
You have five minutes for Final Answer, no phone calls and f*ck your prayers. Get it right this time or go to hell.
I don't care. It means about as much to me as your mental state of consciousness, because this went way over your head fast, sonny boy. Did you get to trip while it was popular?
2004-03-23 06:39 | User Profile
toddbrendanfahey,
Great News!
[QUOTE]I will remarry my ex-wife this winter.[/QUOTE]
:cheers: :cheers:
But let's see some pregnancy this time. :yes:
2004-03-23 14:38 | User Profile
[QUOTE=Faust]toddbrendanfahey,
Great News!
:cheers: :cheers:
But let's see some pregnancy this time. :yes:[/QUOTE]
I have to disagree with you on this, Faust. Fahey is not fit to be a father. He is still in boyhood himself. He is too self-centered. I hope his ex wises up before she goes down the aisle.
2004-03-24 03:39 | User Profile
[QUOTE=toddbrendanfahey]Aside from my recreational drug intake being none of your business, my ex- has agreed to take me back "as I am." She's seen the worst, and the worst came from trying to hide my drug intake from her (not necessarily from the drugs themselves).
Once I came clean (not be confused with "got clean"...which will probably never happen), I felt like a new man.
Something you prol'ly will never understand, and, as I said, it ain't your business anyway.
Dunno why some of you are so snoopy and Puritanical. That's sure not my style of politics. Some of you seem comfortable in John Ashcroft's quarter.[/QUOTE]Todd, we aren't being snoopy. You said right up front that you are not going to cease using drugs, just presumably use them more responsibly, whatever that means. The reason you said that is you feel the need for public acceptance, and have gone public with your present intentions, as you have your past usage. I do respect your right to privacy, but you've just waived that.
So quit your bitchin. I think that part of your character probably actually is more important to preserving your marriage than not relapsing into drug addition, though both are important.
That said, congratulations, our prayers, and best of luck with your marriage. I pray that things work out for you and yours.
2004-03-24 05:52 | User Profile
[QUOTE=toddbrendanfahey]Aside from my recreational drug intake being none of your business, my ex- has agreed to take me back "as I am." She's seen the worst, and the worst came from trying to hide my drug intake from her (not necessarily from the drugs themselves).
Once I came clean (not be confused with "got clean"...which will probably never happen), I felt like a new man.
Something you prol'ly will never understand, and, as I said, it ain't your business anyway.
Dunno why some of you are so snoopy and Puritanical. That's sure not my style of politics. Some of you seem comfortable in John Ashcroft's quarter. [/QUOTE]
(Source: some defunct stoner mag which didn't get the snoop memo)-
*Let me admit or confess, firstly, that drugs were involved. Chasing around Amsterdam for a directionless Gonzo story, I was obliged to sample the local wares and did my utmost to both fulfill Smoke's mandate, that I: "Smoke everything!", but also to generate enough anxiety that a "Fear and Loathing" piece might be realized. Along the way, thrown into the mix, as it were, there was some MDMA, LSD and psylocibin, and the 2cb gobbled down an hour or so before touring the Van Gogh Museum allowed me to see painterly technique in a fresh way. But on the evening in question, I was taking it easy ... only a bit of hash in the system, wch has never, for me, produced "the Visionary Experience."
...Something nagged at me, as does an unremembered face. I walked to the front door, knelt, and stared at myself in the other mirror, and again the room, all physical confines, fell away, and I saw myself in all stages of physical, emotional and intellectual development--the All of me now, exposed and apparent to me, and understood by me--and was given license to ask questions, cast them into the Void, anything I desired, and, spontaneously I did, asked one and only one question, wch was: "Who am I?" It came back the answer, wch was God's answer, true and eternal, I was assured--not a voice or lettering of any sort, but a response, clear and indelible and undeniable, wch resounded in me for nearly an hour, registering in my soul, brought me to my knees and shook me to involuntary weeping.
It sd:
YOU ARE A HOLY
man *
Whoa. Heavy, man.